I hate to admit it. There’s a popular song that I have come to love. I try my hardest to not go with whatever the fad of the day is. For a good long time, I have resisted popular approaches, songs, thoughts, fads mostly because that’s how I’m put together- I like being different from others. But this time, I’ve failed. I’ve fallen in love with a song that everyone loves. I’ve fallen in love with a song that doesn’t really have much theological significance at all.

And I can’t figure out if I should hate that I’ve fallen in love with it or not.  Read the rest of this entry »

One Year

October 20, 2014

One year. It’s been one year.

This time last year we were visiting friends. A former church celebrating its years. Riding a combine and hugging necks. My two-year old running down the aisle of the church. A older woman describing him as “perfect” as she marveled at his joy.

And then a couple weeks later, he was gone. A double ear infection. A wrong prescription. Issues with the gut began. Skin paled. Eyes darkened. Voice quieted. Right side weakened. He went away. This child I had so loved beyond words or thought or images slipped from me while staying with us at the same time. One year ago.

And so the battle began. The fight to get him back. The fight to fix what was wrong. And it continues to this day.

We’ve lost a year.

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